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Jenna Kilic
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Kristina McDonald
Five Poems
Toni Hanner
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Annie Mascorro
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Brittney Corrigan
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S. E. Hudgens
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Ali Doerscher
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David Sloan
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Olivia Cole
Five Poems
Lucy M. Logsdon
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Marc Pietrzykowski
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Donna Levine Gershon
Five Poems
Eva Heisler
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Stephanie Rose Adams
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Jill Kelly
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Ben Bever
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Michael Hugh Lythgoe
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Arlene Zide
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Harry Bauld
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Lisa Zerkle
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Peter Mishler
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Tim Hawkins
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Marqus Bobesich
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Abigail Templeton-Greene
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Eric Duenez
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Anne Graue
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Susan Laughter Meyers
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Peter Kahn
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D. Ellis Phelps
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Linda Sonia Miller
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Nicklaus Wenzel
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Holly Cian
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Susan Morse
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Daniel Lassell
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Svetlana Lavochkina
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Daniel Sinderson
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Catherine Garland
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Michael Fleming
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Clearly visible through the kitchen
window, a shovel leans
against the fence. The yard
of our city apartment is nearly
nine square feet and everything
I’ve tried to grow has died
so you joked that I was Queen Midas,
that I could kill anything with a touch,
which didn’t make much sense
but I laughed because it was better
than not laughing but I stopped
touching the garden although
I didn’t stop touching you.
It’s a brand new shovel
and the dirt looks undisturbed
and as I let the coffee burn
I wonder what it is
you’re planning to bury.
It’s hard to run with a shield in one hand,
but we get used to the extra weight.
The point isn’t to hide.
We wear our motherlessness
on our chests, like Athena,
born in full armor, raised
by a father. We don’t
use the word abandoned.
People know our story so well, they forget
they know our story.
We like the feel of dirt
and rocks and we sleep
under trees and never talk
about our feelings.
The point isn’t to feel, either.
Which is why, when we find
the well-worn teddy bear
stashed under branches,
a note saying Love, Mom
tied to its paw,
we burn it.
Which is why
I didn’t tell them
it was mine.
It’s one of those things that happen to other people
and besides, I’d always wanted a puppy
so I stopped to say hello and was distracted
by the gathering saliva, the darkness
of its lips, the sudden
wrongness of it all
so when its jaw clamped down
at first, there was only silence
and a warm empty feeling.
I wanted to disappear.
I started singing an old children’s song
but I couldn’t remember the words
so I closed my eyes and pictured my mother
in the kitchen the day she said
girls in white dresses
should never be caught
lying on their backs
stirring the stars at night
with their tongue.
She had a knife in her hand at the time
though I couldn’t quite remember why
and when I opened my eyes I could see
the blood seeping through the grass.
I don’t know at what point he let go
and later, when the doctor asked me
what happened, I told him it was just
an accident. It was nobody’s fault
but my own.
In Australia, they cover corpses
with leaves. Slow erasure of organs,
of skin. In Andorra, it is the law
to ask every body you find
lying face down, Are you dead?
Are you dead? Are you dead?
•
A girl walks into the desert. She can smell
the morning’s carrion and she understands
this is how time passes. Fingers lengthen
but have less to hold. Overhead, vultures circle
and she needs them to land. She needs to ask
if they’ve seen her mother.
•
It takes over two thousand days to mummify
the self, like they used to do in Japan.
She wonders if her mother’s hidden somewhere,
only a thousand days from death.
•
A person isn’t missing
if she disappears
on purpose.
•
A girl walks into a museum
full of skeletons. She needs to know
why skulls always look like
they’re smiling.
•
A woman hides in the bathroom
of a funeral home, washing off
her mother-face. She shakes hands
with a cadaver, says, If anyone asks,
I wasn’t here.
and I can’t stop staring at the two five-fingered bruises on my neck, pulsating like some ghost is trying to open a door in my throat. Behind me, a mask on the wall is hiding another mask, almost forgotten but in the reflection I can make out both sets of lips whispering, You have to let go. But I notice my foot is getting sleepy so I spin it a story about a house the shape of a head and inside the house, a wolf, inside the wolf, a man I once loved before I learned every mouth holds a secret and every hand makes a fist and somewhere in this story someone or something died savagely at the tooth of another. My father hated his own face and my father’s father used to smash everything around him before he disappeared mysteriously one night, not unlike my mother although not before she stood me in front of a mirror with my first make-up kit and said, You’re the one who looks at your reflection. You’re not the one who looks back.
Kristina McDonald received her MFA from Eastern Washington University, where she was the poetry editor of Willow Springs. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in Narrative, New Guard Review, Switchback, and Sugar House Review. She has worked for the literary non-profits Writers in the Schools and Get Lit! Programs, and she currently works at Rice University.