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Li Zhang
Ana Reisens
Pam asked about Europe
& other poems
Krystle May Statler
To the Slow Burn
& other poems
Kristina Cecka
On Remodeling
& other poems
Belinda Roddie
Bless The Bones Of California
& other poems
Summer Rand
Alexander tells me how he'd like to be buried
& other poems
Alexander Perez
Toward the Rainbow
& other poems
Karo Ska
self-portrait of compassion…
& other poems
David Southward
The Pelican
& other poems
George Longenecker
Stamp Collection
& other poems
Mary Keating
Salty
& other poems
Talya Jankovits
Imagine A World Without Raging Hormones
& other poems
Laurie Holding
Sonnet to Mr. Frost
& other poems
David Ruekberg
A Short Essay on Love
& other poems
Elaine Greenwood
There’s a thick, quiet Angel
& other poems
Richard Baldo
Carry On Caretaker
& other poems
Jefferson Singer
Dave Righetti’s No-Hitter…
& other poems
Diane Ayer
A Fan
& other poems
Kaecey McCormick
Meditation Before Desert Monsoon
& other poems
Meg Whelan
Resubstantiation
& other poems
Katherine B. Arthaud
Possible
& other poems
Aaron Glover
On Transformation
& other poems
Anne Marie Wells
[I'm crying in a sandwich shop reading Diane Seuss' sonnets]
& other poems
Holly Cian
Untitled
& other poems
Kimberly Russo
Selective Memories are the Only Gift of Dementia
& other poems
Steven Monte
Larkin
& other poems
Mervyn Seivwright
Fear Mountain
& other poems
The earth wraps its limbs around
the color of my spine. I can see you,
standing in the doorway of your heart,
your drawings like mango,
a mouthful of sunset tossed
into your selected lap,
the translucent shooting
small as a rabbit, thin
as a spine of pearls
my dear
against the beat of soft night
the specimen of your voice
is abob in the eager trap of itself.
When I say, help me, I do not mean
Give yourself to me
You are all that I need
My world is improved by you.
When I pull at the splits
of my hair and skin
there is something just past you
that I want to get away from.
Nothing like love to let itself out
into a night of strangers
buttoning their chins
turning to the dim light.
Sometimes people feel needed less and less. The air folds me like an extra blanket.
The air is a part of the touch of a shoulder. The room is quiet in the thick air.
I would never worry when all your heart thickens like a collapsing structure.
—
In space, your limbs fold out. When you disappear, the air unbuttons.
I examine the dimples in my skin through the bedsheets. In the morning,
I spread my fingertips like a lost doll. In my car, a piece of light spits
through the windshield. We are not alone here, you of the opposite direction.
—
At times I taste like cold breath when the room is empty. At times the space
is like a large bird, I do not know how, just watching. But, when I was home
and the room was dark with blinds and burnt-out bulbs, the muffled murmur
of the apartment next door, the porch dusted with pollen, a half dozen letters
rambled onto the table, I invited the bird inside and gave him what I had.
Tonight, house lights glow from the hills like the fattest stars.
Plump with the day’s satisfaction, you thank your lucky stars.
I’m at the sink washing plates, at the window,
you are tampering with the stars.
You never know if the light comes from within them
or outside of them, but everyone else knows the stars
do a bit of both, we all reflect things. After all
even you reflect stars
or share space with them, are aware
of the existence of large pockets of light; tiny stars,
I’m at the window, drying dishes and watering the plants
perked up by the light of the stars;
I am imagining plants breathing, they are aglow in cell
regeneration, they are like stars
in that I don’t know when they start to die
and so they die; we are like stars,
too, I don’t know when we started to die
but the whole world is doing it. Calculated stars,
we’re set afire. We burn through existence.
I shake in my bed and walk out to the stars.
There are clouds tonight. The street
lamps flicker, like stars.
High cheekbones press to the fatal sky,
new halos like yellow suns,
throats point in shadow.
The language looks like blood
to me, the symbolic bird
something ominous,
to be feared, emanating
lines on blotches of blue storm.
I am told that these are tongues
of fire, and I take my own cracked
hand into my pocket and finger
the holes of my keys.
The tongue is a spare line.
What wonder the eyes feel,
splattered into cells
and amphibious. In the days
that followed,
and the days in between,
did they wipe their mouths
with a spare or resolute
desperation?
What pulse the skin feels,
thickening like a blaze
beneath it.
the opal you called a pearl; the sun in a polaroid you
called the spots just a whiteness with breath that burned.
earlier,
your unclaimed moan filled the room;
what we have here is losing
air and water, palpebral response:
the doctors poke around for more but cannot find it.
your gasp is purple like a sawed off tongue
and in September,
a month that was invented,
cursed, held and wasted—
there is a magnet on my fridge
with brighter air.
what space can we give you?
what space do we have to give?
Holly Cian holds a BA in Creative Writing from the College of Charleston and an MA in Literature from Western Carolina University. Her work has been published in Pinesong, The Great Smokies Review, Rougarou, and is forthcoming in North Dakota Quarterly and The Lindenwood Review. She works in animal rescue and lives in Asheville, NC, with three cats.