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Cover Elena Koycheva
Bryce Emley
Asking Father What’s at the End
& other poems
AJ Powell
Butterfly-minded
& other poems
Faith Shearin
Biology
& other poems
Claire Van Winkle
Admitting
& other poems
Sarah W. Bartlett
Summer Cycles
& other poems
Nooshin Ghanbari
Vincent
& other poems
Meli Broderick Eaton
The Afterlives of Leaves
& other poems
Jeddie Sophronius
Refugees
& other poems
Paula Bonnell
In Winter, By Rail
& other poems
Addison Van Auken Waters
Girls
& other poems
Daniel Sinderson
Hallelujah
& other poems
Andrew Allport
All Nature Will Fable
& other poems
Marte Stuart
What an Insult Time Is
& other poems
Matthew Parsons
My Father as an Inuit Hunter
& other poems
Emily Bauer
Gently, Gently
& other poems
Bruce Marsland
A once lovelorn bard’s final journey
& other poems
Beatrix Bondor
Night Makers
& other poems
Isabella Skovira
Lawless Conservation
& other poems
Juan Pablo González
Colombia, 1928
& other poems
Molly Pines
The Pillbug
& other poems
Jamie Marie
On the Lake
& other poems
William A. Greenfield
If You Show Me Yours
& other poems
Bill Newby
Tuesdays at The Seagate's Atlantic Grille
& other poems
Elder Gideon
Male Initiation Rites
& other poems
Joel Holland
Dear Gi-Gi
& other poems
Martha R. Jones
How Lewis Carroll Met Edgar Allan Poe
& other poems
In fulfilling their obligations, men stand to lose—a hovering threat that separates them from women and boys. They stand to lose their reputations or their lives; yet their prescribed tasks must be done if the group is to survive and prosper. Because boys must steel themselves to enter into such struggles, they must be prepared by various sort of tempering and toughening. To be men, most of all, they must accept the fact that they are expendable.
—David Gilmore. Manhood in the Making. (1990)
enemies anytime everything
nothing gives of itself nature tests
hunger and thirst is to be alive
if you fall back in fear we will die
your world is still her little hut
because you’re blind you cannot see
what waits to wrest you from her arms
beyond her bed and soft embrace
every male worth seeding must resist
running back into the arms of his
mother’s hut feminine mysteries
ceased the night you awoke in your dew
if you refuse to stand and fight
or know what pain it is to live
before your burning eyes you’ll see
your kin be swallowed whole and end
where will we be without testing you?
women are born into women but
men are not born but are made into
men who must turn their face to the threat
we show a boy what life is like
to tear him out his mother’s womb
to seize and strip him down by force
to face the task awaiting him
whip his legs lash his face tear his ears
sear his skin scar his back make him bleed
It is not we who test not at all
life is far harsher than warriors
“The goal of the initiation is not merely to make a better, stronger, or more knowledgeable person of the initiand, however much this may be desired, but to transform her utterly, make her totally different from what she had been, and radically separate her from her childhood existence.”
—Bruce Lincoln. Emerging from the Chrysalis. (1981)
Widen my hips burgeon my breasts
Darken my groin—
I am the weal of descendants
Ancestors wheel about my nave
Cut their lines and circles
not on a tree stone or bone but me
I show by the iron in my blood
Running from eternal symbols etched in my flesh
That I am the earth speaking to you now
∆
In our daughters stirring She dreams us
We are Her ways She taught
She is our ways we keep
In every daughter’s bloom She dawns
From soil for crops to grow
Our hearts need only feel with their fingers
To know how She is here
∆
Rouse her who left us take her limp hands
Lift her to us from where she’s come silence speaks
Join her to us sing songs to our brave traveler
Touch the future from where she’s come time unties
Feel her with us gaze into the eyes of our young envoy
Receive her gifts from where she’s come goodness floods
Embrace her to us meet this woman who left a girl
Behold her transformed from where she’s come changes everything
Existence
“is a series of passages from one age to another,”
wrote Van Gennep, analyzing the ritualized life (1909)
of human development in traditional lineages.
In each culture, ceremonies for every individual
were marked what he called “rites of passage.”
By these, people developed fully in their society
through every physical change, so that “society
will suffer no discomfort or injury.” Another
pattern reveals phases within every ritual passage—
separation, transition, incorporation. Life
held continuous, sacred meaning for individuals
in community, despite their social position or age.
Without initiation rituals, fewer come of age
to a viable place of incorporation in our society,
making more painful, uncertain, “an individual’s
transition from one status to another.”
This in part explains modernity’s malaise. Life
for young people seems arbitrary as their passage
of fulfilling desires lengthens. Forbidden passage
through straits of longing can often damage
fragile psyches. Without myths to guide life,
disfigured youth reflect a dehumanizing society.
Youth culture reacts against exile as other—
exposing the trauma of becoming an individual.
Angry youth who push back, individuals
who unconsciously seek their rite of passage,
are just as vulnerable to approval of another
force that eats its young. The marginal vantage,
that “novices are outside society and society
has no power over them,” often costs their life.
Having shattered every spiritual way of life,
colonialism continues to splinter individuals
into tinier figments of an imagined society.
Without conscious, communal rites of passage,
Western storm and stress will only ravage
what’s left of a way forward, one way or another.
[Separation]
No wonder youths of our societal mirror rage
against serving life terms—others beneath
elite individuals—without passage out.
[Transition]
We are heirs of our imperial society,
Are the aging cannibals of history—
Indigenous individuals sentenced to text passage.
[Incorporation]
Societies that desecrate their sacral image
send individuals adrift through another
Far harsher passage in eternal, liminal life.
All conceive in flight
All are heir to air
Few are parent butterflies
More are parent common flies
Few are eggs that hang up high
More are eggs that lay down low
Few are larvae born above
More are larvae born below
Few are fed by what still lives
More are fed by what has died
Few will molt and spread midair
Most will molt in search of sky
Few souls hatch from chrysalis
Most souls hatch from carcasses
If I had not nearly died,
Bored my way out of what is dead
An essence in putrescence—
This iridescent slick—chose
Me to break out breathing
Far beyond my body
Awaking with a start,
the President was shaken.
By a dream that no one,
his cabinet nor any
his soothsayers, could interpret,
save some youths imprisoned,
famed for dream interpretation.
He summoned them. To tell him
what it meant—
“I was in the Astrodome
filled with thousands gathered.
intermittent power caused
arena lights to flicker.
When the lights went out,
you couldn’t see a thing.
Instead of football on the field,
Every one was looking up
armed and aiming at the ceiling.
Where I stood made hard to see
their target in the smoke.
When I looked below, I saw so
many piled up empty cages.
Then I knew that every person
there was shooting for a prize.
When the lights would blink back on,
their guns would fire all at once.
Rounds of shots erupted like
a dozen awful bombs that
stung my ears and seared my eyes.
No one turned to see one fall
down maimed or dead from ricochet.
No one shouted out
for help that never came.
I saw others no one noticed
Doing something strange.
Standing there with walking sticks.
They waited ‘til the lights went out
And all the shooting stopped.
It fell quiet.
Enough to hear another speak.
In that darkness spoke the name
another one nearby.
Gently held his ear.
Natural that it drew their eye
away to look out to their side.
Though they didn’t know this
other speaking, something opened.
Do I know you? he would ask,
Of course you do! Remember when—?
So they’d talk like neighbors as
shooting all around resumed.
So engrossed in stories long
forgotten, the one who heard his name
had set his gun down at his side,
unaware it turned into
a walking stick. On they talked.
Face to face like two old farmers
resting hands on tops of handles.
As lights went on, they turned away
To face another near them. Waited
for the quiet of the dark to
speak another’s name.
On this went, as one by one,
responding to their names,
others paused to hear their name
and reminisce until their rifle
turned into another stick.
When lights returned, I finally glimpsed
the birds that flew above us.
rounds exploded everywhere
as people fell from ricochet.
In and out the cloud of gunsmoke
up against the metal dome
flashed a convocation.
Fledgling eagles crying out
against no where to go.
My heart sank where I stood,
so powerless to stop.
Feathers snowed as shattered wings
could no more lift the air.
I witnessed many eagles fall
To mauling crowds that fought
and brawled like savage dogs.
Lights blacked out in riot kills
That chill me still to tell.
What say you, youths,
the meaning of my dream?”
These poems from Elder Gideon’s first book Without Passage come from his life as an educator, visual artist, and faith leader of a Gnostic community. For over twenty years, he’s worked with diverse, underserved young people, whose stories continually impact his imagination and spirituality. He structured these experiences into a chapbook trilogy that section “Without Passage” into meditations on the anthropology, sociology, psychology, and mythology of adolescent development.