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Alysse Kathleen McCanna
Pentimento
& other poems
Peter Nash
Shooting Star
& other poems
Katherine Smith
House of Cards
& other poems
David Sloan
On the Rocks
& other poems
Alexandra Smyth
Exoskeleton Blues
& other poems
John Glowney
The Bus Stop Outside Ajax Bail Bonds
& other poems
Andrea Jurjević O’Rourke
It Was a Large Wardrobe...
& other poems
Lisa DeSiro
Babel Tree
& other poems
Michael Fleming
Reptiles
& other poems
Michael Berkowitz
As regards the tattoo on your wrist
& other poems
Michael Brokos
Landscape without Rest
& other poems
Michael H. Lythgoe
Orpheus In Asheville
& other poems
John Wentworth
morning people
& other poems
Christopher Jelley
Double Exposure
& other poems
Catherine Dierker
dinner party
& other poems
William Doreski
Hate the Sinner, Not the Sin
& other poems
Robert Barasch
Loons
& other poems
Rande Mack
bear
& other poems
Susan Marie Powers
Red Bird
& other poems
Anne Graue
Sky
& other poems
Mariah Blankenship
Tub Restoration
& other poems
Paul R. Davis
Landscape
& other poems
Philip Jackey
Garage drinking after 1989
& other poems
Karen Hoy
A Naturalist in New York
& other poems
Gary Sokolow
Underworld Goddess
& other poems
Michal Mechlovitz
The Early
& other poems
Henry Graziano
Last Apple
& other poems
Stephanie L. Harper
Unvoiced
& other poems
Roger Desy
anhinga
& other poems
R. G. Evans
Hangoverman
& other poems
Frederick L. Shiels
Driving Past the Oliver House
& other poems
Richard Sime
Berry Eater
& other poems
Jennifer Popoli
Generations in a wine dark sea
& other poems
Deep enough to step into, touch lapels of his suits,
patch leather elbows of tweed jackets, ties lurking
through thin mod prints, hint of naphthalene and musk.
And Mom’s feather-light blouses—slack polyester willows.
Rows of empty sleeves faced west, to the window
that framed the rugged Učka curving above the bay,
its hazel-green like the eyes of this fox boa that Dad,
in one of his moments of bravado, had stolen
for Mom, and that she, of course, never wore. Once,
those glassy eyes flashed, as if at the dirt-brown stack
of scuffed briefcases on the ground. Inside, sis and I found,
lay stained, yet still glossy, catalogs of the ’70s decadence—
page after frayed page of nudes running through poses.
Our lashes threshed at each of those glam-wantons—
and that dog. We’d seen sunbathers scattered across cliffs,
naked and lazy like fat beige gulls, and that other time
when we peeked through the keyhole at Dede bending
over a steaming bath, his body creased with sickness.
Instead, this show of shipyard makeovers—the hollow O’s
of pink-frosted lips, lids caked with silver eye-shadow, thick
semen, and in this up close, Salò-like shot—that puppy’s
innocent erection, its mahogany fur almost like our pet setter.
Even the street kids running by a kavana in this poorly-lit alley know your kind—
another dull Slavic star among clouds of smoke,
balanced on the edge of a rickety stool, leaning toward some new, pretty face,
the two of you cleansed in the reflection of shot glasses.
From their street, your mouth is a funk apparat of familiar lines: all brass, blather,
your tar-grained voice plying romance like a fiery Balkan accordion.
And for a few more dinars between the strings, the violin will keep lamenting,
trumpets coughing their belligerent longing,
your blind hand pawing up her warm knee until the lights come on, spill milk over
your magic squalor, the streets already in their cardboard sleep.
Six hours apart is not too bad on an average day.
Like when you step into jeans, still stiff
from cleanliness, I slip into the coldness
of sheets. And in some other world
somehow more physical than typing notes
we almost meet in one naked moment,
though not many days are average just as you
are not an average man. Except, you remind me
of someone I knew years ago—at times
even loathed—he, too, was a picaresque consumed
with unrestrained sex and the nursing of plants:
like that ficus with bruised eyes you found
on a street curb and now tend to with UV lamps,
(the blooming cactus he filmed daybreak-to-dusk,
just as Death in Venice observes a man observing a boy).
Like the sun is busy, dedicated to the fading of drapes,
and Albuquerque dust turns the sky into sheets of slate—
how long before the limestone cliffs of the Adriatic?
Like the ebb of a paper cut, the thrill of your messages,
thin and anemic as the hours between them.
Funny, had I loved him less I’d hardly remember him,
just that skin: ashen, after he died, his gaze fixed
at the flickering persimmon out the bathroom window,
leaf shadows on his face, and the fruit of his absent breath—
You make me feel graceful in savagery.
With every snarl, each small whine, I shiver like a junkie at the sight
of a burnt teaspoon,
like fever chills zing through bones, like the warmth of panic attacks.
You turn me on in uneasy ways, like a fresh widow’s recurred penchant
for crotchless panties,
the sweet ache of fucking against the stone sink behind St. Josephs’, chicory
scratching itself, the bells’ rings like tongues
gossping. In fact, I think you’re the little beast squatting under my ribs,
beating on the djembe—at each thump I tremble:
a smack like the sweet and bitter in Maraschino, a scorpion’s pinch.
I feed you nest-tangles of my hair, the skin off the small of my back, toss
in a few fine words—Spank my ass with that plank-hard cock—
so we will never get bogged down with some ordinary anxieties, love,
just like the sea will never stop fighting itself.
If I talk to it nicely, will it work? he asks
while scanning my card, feeling the strip
on its plastic back. I mumble back something
clumsy. He’s cute, though, gives me long looks—
I can tell he hasn’t practiced them often.
His arms, their long mossy smoothness
shows under the rolled-up plaid shirt, its tail
tucked loosely below the ribs of his corduroys.
I think, He is far too young, and how I’ve fallen
for the bookish types too many times before,
how my history with such is enough to fill
the scrawny poetry shelf in the corner,
the one facing golden puff pastry recipes
and columns of self-help manuals.
I think how certain personal histories
should be pushed overboard some transatlantic ship,
made illegal, declined visa and residence and sent
to Cuba, or some other godforsaken place.
But Cuban music is sensuality and vice fused tight
(the stuff decisions are usually made of), and I imagine
Creole nights must have that strange sultry flavor, too.
I think about how mellow sounds can be cues
for something more disturbing—like jazz in movies
signals a brooding scene in a little room in the back,
someone sitting on a bistro chair under a bare bulb,
beaten like the orange pulp of six hundred cracked
mamoncillos. At the same time I fail to understand
the meaning of an unresponsive bookstore card,
and why, an hour later, as I stir granules of raw sugar
into my macchiato, I find that my new notebook
is blank, not ruled, and that paper—its white narcotic
emptiness—takes me back to the soft-spoken clerk.
Andrea Jurjević O’Rourke’s poems have recently appeared or are forthcoming in The Missouri Review, Harpur Palate, The Rag, Barrelhouse, Raleigh Review, Verse Wisconsin, and elsewhere. She is the 2013 Robinson Jeffers Tor Prize Winner. A native of Croatia, she lives in Atlanta now, where she translates, paints (oils on cotton paper and acrylics on canvas) and attends the MFA program at Georgia State University.