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Chris Joyner
Wrestlemania III
& other poems
Carey Russell
Visiting Hours
& other poems
Marc Pietrzykowski
Cabinet of Wonders
& other poems
Jonathan Travelstead
Prayer of the K-12
& other poems
Jennifer Lowers Warren
Our Daughter's Skin
& other poems
Jeff Burt
The Mapmaker's Legend
& other poems
Patricia Percival
Giving in to What If
& other poems
Toni Hanner
1960—Lanny
& other poems
Christopher Dulaney
Uncle
& other poems
Suzanne Burns
Window Shopping
& other poems
Katherine Smith
Mountain Lion
& other poems
Peter Kent
Surliness in the Green Mountains
& other poems
William Doreski
Gathering Sea Lavender
& other poems
Huso Liszt
Fresco, The Forlorn Virgin...
& other poems
Clifford Hill
How natural you are
& other poems
R. G. Evans
Dungeoness
& other poems
David Kann
Dead Reckoning
& other poems
Ricky Ray
The Music of As Is
& other poems
Tori Jane Quante
Creatio ex Materia
& other poems
G. L. Morrison
Baba Yaga
& other poems
Joe Freeman
In a Wood
& other poems
George Longenecker
Bear Lake
& other poems
Benjamin Dombroski
South of Paris
& other poems
Ryan Kerr
Pulp
& other poems
Josh Flaccavento
Glen Canyon Dam
& other poems
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Christine Stroud
Grandmother
& other poems
Abraham Moore
Inadvertent Landscape
& other poems
Chris Haug
Cow with Parasol
& other poems
Mariah Blankenship
Fiberglass Madonna
& other poems
Emily Hyland
The Hit
& other poems
Sam Pittman
Growth Memory
& other poems
Alex Linden
The Blues of In-Between
& other poems
Bobby Lynn Taylor
Lift
& other poems
D. Ellis Phelps
Five Poems
Alia Neaton
Cosmogony I
& other poems
Elisa Albo
Each Day More
& other poems
Noah B. Salamon
Sanctuary
& other poems
Winner of $1000 for 1st-place-voted Poems
Chris JoynerSo much depends upon
a scoop slam, an atomic
leg drop. Hulk Hogan’s shirt:
red wheelbarrow ripped open
as if by tornado or rust.
Jacked, his waxed skin
glazed with sweat, he is flexed
perfection. Bleached strands
worn like a bald-rimmed crown,
if ever he was apex, it is now:
all 7’5” 500 pounds of André the Giant
muscled impossibly overhead
like a mythological burden,
like Muybridge’s mid-gallop,
airborne horse. Though too young
to have witnessed, I somehow remember
gripping rabbit ears, counting to three
as Hogan peeled back the Giant’s leg.
I remember my father posing, partly
to me, partly to himself,
What makes a man? but never
the answer. I am trying
to pretend I don’t see the future
in his now slouching breasts,
or deeper inside slack flesh,
his heart hammering like a one-
armed carpenter worked too long
into the gloam. I am child again,
beside him under what relief
(I’d yet to fathom) a hot shower
bestows blue-collar bones.
Naked, I make lathering
grease from his hands
a game. Father, can I know
of love’s inglorious sacrifices?
Can I someday sing of its gristle?
Can I? Can I sing?
Fledgling blunders, routine
tragedies, a dusk-bourbon sky
chasing us home. Suburbia—
what’s salvageable:
this viewfinder of warped images?
Or rather, memory as a hose
untangled with coordination
and patience? Copper-sweet
water the spigot rewards?
Now the sour must of an office
where my uncle hid monolithic
stacks of skin magazines, all airbrushed
areolas and bush. When it seemed enough
to simply palm my flesh
like an injured chick. Flash
to swimsuit snatched below
my bony knees, prick a sudden
offering to the golden
lifeguard with Fibonacci curls.
How the yelp I mustered
before bolting sounded
not my own. A summer anthem,
shame became inescapable,
became like gravity
teaching the moon
to orbit alone.
So I lifted weights in our oily garage,
tore muscle like sacrament bread.
The friend I hated most once snapped
my hockey stick in half for no reason
other than cruelty craves reaction.
So too he set fire to a pine
in the neighboring woods;
I entered briefly to see it blaze—
a blood-red exclamation.
That was how it went: rarely living
between hatred and honey, not rebellious
but ignorant of consequence
until we witnessed how indifferent
and vibrant the flames, how surely,
when stepped on, a rusted nail
settles the soft meat.
This tender recess left
once the nail is loosed.
But for now, 17, we are
acned and beautiful, tornadic
in our angst. The venue’s strobe-
dark striates our flail
neon/black/neon/black.
Lost in an undulation of knuckles
and chains, bedraggled bangs
and B.O., we are tossed—
paper lanterns in a storm—
slip, are lifted, return
to riffs clipping the beer-thick air,
kick drums pummeling our love
for the necessary rebellion
punk rock affords. After,
the lingering
sting in our ears we smuggle
home like anything good
that fades. But for now our bodies,
apertures through which
revolt and song, prism brilliantly—
solar flares through stained glass.
Bless the smaller, left breast, untethered, swimming
under faded cotton you wear to bed,
mattress begun to cup like hands
held out for the drizzle of our sleep.
Bless the 37 crumpled drafts of “Virtuvian Man”
Da Vinci, flustered, arced into his waste bin.
Drafts with one testicle slightly drooped,
one longer leg, six fingers, wonky eye.
Bless the crooked pocket sewn for pennies
in a country not quite our antipode. The unpredictable
course blood runs from a needle-nicked finger.
The unpredictable course by which cancer conquers,
finally, the dictator’s lymph and marrow.
Bless the fractal crack of lightning,
its flighty refusal to lick the same ground.
The drunk man struck while scrawling
sloppily, with earnest into the oaks’ flank
he hearts her—a declaration
to whichever sidereal big shot
rules over us but does not appear
to reward our psalms.
Which is not the way I feel for you now,
Honey-Bum, as you saunter braless, against
exhaustion, toward the commitment
of another dawn. Not asymmetrical, exactly, our love
but chiral, Icarian in its fluctuations. Not golden
our mean but a perfectly flawed stone
in a ring too small. This, the only way
I’d have it: waltzing off-beat,
mismatched,
mooching booze
at oblivion’s dance party.
Chris Joyner is a recent graduate of the MFA program at the University of Miami and calls Virginia home. In 2012 he won honorable mention in Winning Writers’ Sports Poetry and Prose Contest and in 2011 received the Alfred Boas Poetry Prize. His work has appeared in B O D Y, Penduline Press, Brusque, Fiddleblack, the Barely South Review, and elsewhere. While he is currently an adjunct professor of English by day and a server by night, in a parallel universe he ghostwrites for a well-respected rapper.